It's a young love

I just woke up one morning thinking of you, excitedly. I was looking forward to my day with you. 'Twas bliss. That day, i found out i could fall for a girl like you. It was a young kind of love, but it's love nevertheless.

You make me happy. Your smile makes my day. The way you love me is just perfect. And i love you more each day. It's a young love, but it's an exciting kind of love.

You promised to take care of me. I'm not sure why but when you said it, i heard "i love you" in your voice. It's a young love but it's love anyway.

I love you. It's a young love, but it's a forever kind of love.



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to those who have loved and continued to love :)

I try not to..

Dear Sarah,

It's crazy I know. I'm writing this yet knowing also that I'm never gonna give this to you. At least, not right now. I don't have the right to tell you anything. The day I chose to stay away, I lost that right. But I'm not sure I could survive myself if I just kept everything inside. Really, that is CRAZY.

When I decided to stop just thinking about you and what we could ever be, I didn't really understand what I was doing. I just knew then that I was hurting so much-- not being able to talk to you moreso be with you. I was always so looking forward to seeing you and talking with you, that when you avoided me, my world just crumbled. I felt lost. And hurt. But what hurt me more was I knew that if I tried to change your mind, it'd hurt you. It'd be hard for you. So, I chose to stop.

I tried to pick myself up again. I couldn't just give up on myself. There's the now, I had to remind myself of that. I went out with friends. I went out with her. She is my present now. With her, things are easy. With her, I can be whoever or whatever I am. With her, I don't get hurt. With her, I am allowed not to feel too much. And I think, that's what my heart needs now, a rest from loving too much.

Yes, there's the now. That's what I tell myself everyday. Yet, there are those moments also that thoughts of the future just manage to slip out. I try to put reign on those thoughts. They should be kept inside. But whenever I see you, or I think of you, I remember to hope again.

That, in time, there's a future for the two of us.

So, I start to smile when I say your name.

If i'm hurting you now, I'm sorry.

Right now, I know only one way to love you. Either I love you completely or I try not to love you.

I try.

Until I'm reminded of your smile. Of the next Sunday. Of your laughter, and the sound of it. Of your eyes. Of the hope for the future...Of our love's own time.


Love,

Idan



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For the love of my life

Dear Sarah,

I'm not gonna hide behind my words. I'll give it to you short. I miss you. That's the least of all the feelings that I'm going through right now.

When you told me last that you needed space, though I knew it was not going to be easy, I agreed.

I thought it was something that I could just go through, after all I've been through a lot. I was wrong. I began to miss you. I just had to talk to you even to merely hear your voice. And when you started not receiving my calls anymore nor any of my texts, I was in hell. At least, that's how it felt like.

I know that space is what you need, and I should be willing to give that to you. But in my heart, I need your presence for my life becomes an vacuum---empty without you.

But I know that it would be so selfish of me to demand that from you. I'd be willing to accept even if it's just friendship.

I would even go for a once in awhile "hi" whenever you remember me. But please, not a total cut off. I'd go crazy. Really.

Right now, I'm just trying to survive each day. I spend my time going out with friends, and meeting new ones--while I wait for you.

I don't even know if I should be waiting, but I AM.

There's no other way. That's the only choice I'm willing to consider. I'm not sure what's going to happen next. How we're going to be. Where things will be. But I'm hoping--and praying a lot too--that when your heart is ready, I'm already the man worthy of what you're willing to give.

You are the love of my life.

I can just see my future, there shining and wonderful, each time you smile at me. That's what gets me going these days.

Your smile reminds me of the presence of the future, and that there is indeed "in time" in all this waiting.

But let me also tell you today that "I miss you more each day". Sundays will be my most favorite day.


John Lloyd



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B: ahaha...sa mga nagrequest, here goes SF's version of Love's awaiting.

Love's awaiting

It's been a long while since i last wrote down my thoughts. It seems so many things have happened, when in reality there's really not much.

I've fallen in love with him, and he's had also, I know. He brings color to my life. He adds energy to my day. He makes up most of my happiness. And I do love him.

I love John Lloyd.

There, i've said it. I'm gonna love him for a really long time.

But time is not our friend right now. I wanna tell him, yes, I'm ready but I just know i'm not. Not yet. But I love him.

Because of this, I'm scared.

I'm scared that he might not wait for me. I'm scared that he will soon realize that I'm not the one for him, after all. I'm scared that he's gonna live his life without me.

I'm scared that he will find someone else.

I'd like to take a risk and jump in with him. Yet, every time I think of this, I also remember what is at stake when I do that. I try to remind myself that if he is the right guy for me, God will bring our roads together eventually.

That if he really loves me, he'll be waiting even if i don't ask him to.

I've always been secured of his love for me that when I started not getting any text or call from him, I felt like panicking. Is he finally moving on?

It hurts even just thinking that I might not be the most important person in his life anymore. I realized that. And when i saw him again, I wanted to say yes to whatever question he might ask that day. But he didn't ask me anything.

He just loved me that day.

He let me know and realize that it's not just him who is waiting...i am waiting for him too...and our love.

Our love's awaiting. I smile more these days, again. He does too. And he loves me.


Sarah




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B: I've gone through the same thing, loving someone yet waiting for the right time... these thoughts might be Sarah's, who knows?..hehe


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